I honestly grow insecure as I get older
Even when you hot there comes a day when you get colder
Comes a day when you slower, time is taking its toll
45 On the back of the jersey upon your soul
I’m scared of letting go, I don’t know what the future holds
My nightmares are having nightmares
I’m quite scared of what’s right and fair
How I fear an eternity
Will I hear well done when he’s turning me?
Will I hear you care too much about all this stuff that really don’t matter?
You chase the wind and you don’t want it
Got to the top of a 2-foot ladder
What’s after I can capture all this mess my heart was after?
Will I end up empty-handed when I stand before my master?
After the show, after the set, after the music stops, what’s next?
Did I master the mathematics of a passive disaster?
Adding my selfish ambition, all the while subtracting what matters?
I’m scared of falling and failing in front of all of my foes.
I fear some friends are unfaithful,
So I keep my small circle closed.
I don’t want no hand-outs or favors, no functional saviors.
I gonna tell that truth till it kills me,
And I’m chillin with my Creator.
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus!
To all of my haters,
For the ones who think I forgot them,
And the ones who won’t let me say it,
I ain’t scared no more.
Arthur is an author, a former agnostic, and current ambassador of Jesus of Nazareth who loves to share the best of reasons for God's ultimate reality. His love and passion are helping skeptics and Christians grow in their faith and knowledge of God through accessible materials.